Tuesday, September 12, 2006
My story
I dint want to start my blog with too philosophic,sad, melancholy or depressive topic because I know that people prefere to read optimistic funny postings ...
...But today I feel like to share my story, my feelings, my thougths with all of U...I guess it will be a long story cause there is so much to write about.
U dont have to read it all, U dont have to comment on it and I will never get back to it again...
....It seems to me like yesterday when I think about the moment I met Ondra Kral for the first time...It was my first week in Zlin my first party in Golem club...Everything was new for me...New town, new people, new way of life...
September 2001 I moved to the town Zlin to spend there 5 long years while studing at Tomas Bata University ..That night I had the best time of my life...I was enjoying life in Zlin so much..I liked my flatmates, I was satisfied with my dormitory, I was so passion about the organisation I was about to enter(AIESEC), I was enjoying the new university, people around me and the Golem club as well... while dancing at the dance floor 192 cm high, strong, blond with the sparkling blue eyes man asked me if I want to dance with him...I was so happy that night..Good beer, handsome man, good friends around...and that tall man...hm...what a night... really...
Next day I met him at the bus station...My hearth started to beat like a bell, I was shaking like a 14 years old girl at her first date...To my big surprise he didnt remember meJ..To my question:“ hey how are U after yesterday did U sleep well?“... he answered...“Do we know each other????“(if U have known Ondra U probably can imagine with what kind of stupid face he was able to speak with somebody if he didnt care about the personJ) and right after he started to run to catch the bus without any big interest..I dint speak with this tall handsome man for the next half a year Jcause I thought he is the most arogant, selfish, self- confident, bussiness oriented stupid man I ve ever met.
In two years time I had been elected to lead the local branch of AIESEC Czech Republic in Zlin as the president for the year 2003-2004...And U know what...It was my decision to select this „most arogant, selfish, bussiness oriented man“ to my team to help me coordinate all the activities at the commitee...(actually many people tried to persuade me not to do that beacause I would not be able to manage him) U asking why decided so???because already that time I knew he is one of the most special person I ve ever met...After some time I have realised that Ondra is a man of two faces...The bussines one and the friendly one which everybody admire on him so much...I could see that inside of that strong, tall, smart, inteligent, self confident man there is something kind, sweet, romantic, friendly, there is hidden a small afraid boy who needed to love and to help the others.
......It was a big challenge for me to work with him to see if I am able to cooperate with that kind of strong personality....Workwise It was the most challenging year so far...we had to face so many obstacles, so many crisis situations one can ever imagine the 19 years old girl with 4 other people the similar age can face. Partly it was Ondra who I relied on so much...we had similar points of view, similar attitudes toward work and similar imagins how to built from nothing the best working local committe in the Czech republic...We were good friends but everytime we met we were speaking just about work...That time he was dating my kind of good friend...so all my thoughts about the tall handsome man had changed into... good looking friend from whom I can learn a lot- from the bussines point of view...That time Ondra was 23 years old but I bet that with his overview and bussines skills
he was able to replace any manager at any high position and to do the job even better. He was brilliant when it came to negotiation, selling, organizing, leading projects, solving crisis situation, communication with people, bringing good atmosphere with his jokes which he was able to tell 24 per day...And U had to have a good mood when he was presented- there wasnt any other option...
October 2003- he broke up with his girlfriend....it wasnt really nice story...I was trying to help both to feel better and happier as both of them were my close friends...The girl was really down and really desperate cause she couldnt imagine the life without him...Several times she wanted to end it up with life..I really wanted to help her...
December 2003...Day by day I started to feel more intensivly then ever before somewhere deep inside in my hearth I like the moments when Ondra is around...Suddenly I found out we dont speak about work anymore...
January 2004...I couldnt wait to see him after christmas...But I knew it is just not possible to have with Ondra something in common (except of AIESEC ) cause of my kind of good friend I wanted to help so much so that she could feel better...
February 2004...I couldnt think about anybody else then him...My hearth was beeting again like a bell, I was shaking again everytime I saw him...We couldnt speak anymore about work, about us, about anything else..I could hear his hearth beeting and he could hear mine...But both of us knew we can be nothing more then friends with AIESEC in common cause of that sad girl which was still very sad...We still wanted to help her to feel better
The mid of february there were selection to the AIESEC CR national committe...That night 5 people were sleeping in the living room on one king size bed..Nobody couldnt even notice that we fell in love with each other..While falling asleep lying next to eachother he touched my face and looked at me like no other man had looked at me before...that moment I knew he is the man of my life...We decided to wake up in two hours when everybody will be sleeping to express what both of us wanted to express for such a long time...It was the most romantic night in my life...even though we were sleeping in one bed with 4 other peopleJThe journey back from Prague to Zlin took 9 hours(normaly 4) cause we couldnt stay 20 cm far from each other more then 20 minutes...I knew he was the man of my life...but nobody couldnt even guess it cause of that sad desperated girl.
It was the winter and the only place where we could meet was the nearest forest in Zlin...I was always frozen but I didnt care cause I was with the man of my life and I really couldnt wish anything more...I was happy...I was really happy...
During next two months we had to face lots of very difficult situations with that sad girl but we were able to go over it ....Initialy I thought she will be the reason to brake up but at the end it was the right opposite...Noone and nothing could stop us from feeling that strong love and from helping each other anytime...Sometimes I was asking myself if it is not a fairy tale I am living in..sometimes I was asking myself it is really possible to love somebody that much.
...At the end of april we didnt meet at the forest anymore but hand in hand we were strolling around the town because we wanted to show everyone how much it is possible to love...
Next two years were the most happiest and the most sad years in the same time.
The happiest- 2004-2005 I spent 24 hours with Ondra cause we were working in the same team for AIESEC at the national level...We were sleeping together, eating together, driving national strategies for aiesec togather, spending hours and hours at the team meetings together, leading negotiation meetings at the companies together, going to cinema together, having dinner together. Team buildings together, weekends at OPAVA or NOVE MESTO together, enjoying time with familly and friends together....anything you thing about we shared together. I knew him in side out and me ..I couldt pretented anything cause in a minite he knew there is something I would like to speak with him about.
The most sad years
In spite of the fact we spent 24 hours per day at the MC (national committe) togather we really didnt have any privacy at all.I shared my room with two other girls and Ondra shared his room with two 3 guys next to mine..(actually just 2 cause Shantanu was always lying in the living room cause of his big mess in his badJ) We didnt want to have room together and any privacy cause the reason to be at the MC was AIESEC, MC team, personal and proffecional developement, contribution to the developement of AIESEC Czech republic..that was it...no personal life...maybe just when all the meetings will be over...which was sometimes after 11 PM. Ondra was always telling me“ dont worry about the next few years when we wont have that much time for each other...The most important is that I love U and we have the whole life in front of us...Everything will be just better...“
After MC term Ondra moved to Belgium for the traineeship. I can remember when he received the call to be accepted to work for one year for Inbev...There was sitting Ondra Gandel and I looked at him with the question.. „Now I dont know If I should be happy or if I should cry..“And he told me with a kind of Ondra K. Smile...“Be happy“! And I really tried...Because I knew it will be just for one year and it´s so true that we have whole life in front of us... and we are still young and when ever U can do something just for you if not now...
During the year he spent in Leuven he was finally able to be that person I knew he is 2 years ago...I ve never met a person who was working conciously on his personal developement that much as Ondra... For the outside world he changed so much – I couldnt believe its possible. In spite of that I was sad and happy in the same time ..cause I was in Zlin and he was happy with his life, traveling, friends, job etc...I was so afraid the traineeship will devide us as a couple as it happened to many other people before us.
Didnt happen because we really loved each other. Our relation grew day by day inspite of the 1000 km distance that was between us...With every single challenge we had to face
...And we traveled a lot...In last two years in spite of our busy timetables we managed to visit Switzerland, Tunisia, Belgium, Austrian alps, France, Croatia, many places in Czech Rep. and Slovakia.
July 2006- The day when I arrived to Belgium was the strangest day I can remember. On one side I was so happy knowing he will move to Czech Rep. in few days on other side I had such a strange feeling...Couldnt understand it...
In three weeks we´ve managed our holiday in Crotia, Serbia and Montenegro, Bosnia and Podyji in Czech...At Brno station he said bye to me „dont worry my love will see each other on Wednesday in Opava...meanwhile I will move our stuff to our new flat in Prague. Dont worry in half a year U will be there with me and finally we will start a „normal life“
That moment at the Brno station I somehow knew that someting is not in the right way. But I didnt know I saw him for the last time...In two days he was in the wrong time at the wromg place...He died because of the car accident he didnt caused while moving our stuff to our new flat in Prague.
I Dont know were I was going with my story maybe I wanted to share with all of you next points
- if U dont believe in real love please do believe! There is a love... it just depends on how much U can receive and how much U are able to give back
- If U dont believe there are also nice people in the world always think about Ondra because he was the nicest, the most friendly, fair and lovig person.
- If U dont believe U can make an impact in this world that U cant influence anything, stop for a while and think about him how much he was able to teach you how much he changed your point of view how often U think about him where is he now and what he would advice U.
- If U dont believe that everything in this world has a meaning think about this story...Persuaded it wasnt a stupid accident at the wrong place in the wrong time knowing this, its giving me drive to go on with life and to do at least a half impact as he did...
Thank U my love for enriching my life
I commemorate this posting to Ondra Kral who will stay in my hearth forever...
I dint want to start my blog with too philosophic,sad, melancholy or depressive topic because I know that people prefere to read optimistic funny postings ...
...But today I feel like to share my story, my feelings, my thougths with all of U...I guess it will be a long story cause there is so much to write about.
U dont have to read it all, U dont have to comment on it and I will never get back to it again...
....It seems to me like yesterday when I think about the moment I met Ondra Kral for the first time...It was my first week in Zlin my first party in Golem club...Everything was new for me...New town, new people, new way of life...
September 2001 I moved to the town Zlin to spend there 5 long years while studing at Tomas Bata University ..That night I had the best time of my life...I was enjoying life in Zlin so much..I liked my flatmates, I was satisfied with my dormitory, I was so passion about the organisation I was about to enter(AIESEC), I was enjoying the new university, people around me and the Golem club as well... while dancing at the dance floor 192 cm high, strong, blond with the sparkling blue eyes man asked me if I want to dance with him...I was so happy that night..Good beer, handsome man, good friends around...and that tall man...hm...what a night... really...
Next day I met him at the bus station...My hearth started to beat like a bell, I was shaking like a 14 years old girl at her first date...To my big surprise he didnt remember meJ..To my question:“ hey how are U after yesterday did U sleep well?“... he answered...“Do we know each other????“(if U have known Ondra U probably can imagine with what kind of stupid face he was able to speak with somebody if he didnt care about the personJ) and right after he started to run to catch the bus without any big interest..I dint speak with this tall handsome man for the next half a year Jcause I thought he is the most arogant, selfish, self- confident, bussiness oriented stupid man I ve ever met.
In two years time I had been elected to lead the local branch of AIESEC Czech Republic in Zlin as the president for the year 2003-2004...And U know what...It was my decision to select this „most arogant, selfish, bussiness oriented man“ to my team to help me coordinate all the activities at the commitee...(actually many people tried to persuade me not to do that beacause I would not be able to manage him) U asking why decided so???because already that time I knew he is one of the most special person I ve ever met...After some time I have realised that Ondra is a man of two faces...The bussines one and the friendly one which everybody admire on him so much...I could see that inside of that strong, tall, smart, inteligent, self confident man there is something kind, sweet, romantic, friendly, there is hidden a small afraid boy who needed to love and to help the others.
......It was a big challenge for me to work with him to see if I am able to cooperate with that kind of strong personality....Workwise It was the most challenging year so far...we had to face so many obstacles, so many crisis situations one can ever imagine the 19 years old girl with 4 other people the similar age can face. Partly it was Ondra who I relied on so much...we had similar points of view, similar attitudes toward work and similar imagins how to built from nothing the best working local committe in the Czech republic...We were good friends but everytime we met we were speaking just about work...That time he was dating my kind of good friend...so all my thoughts about the tall handsome man had changed into... good looking friend from whom I can learn a lot- from the bussines point of view...That time Ondra was 23 years old but I bet that with his overview and bussines skills
he was able to replace any manager at any high position and to do the job even better. He was brilliant when it came to negotiation, selling, organizing, leading projects, solving crisis situation, communication with people, bringing good atmosphere with his jokes which he was able to tell 24 per day...And U had to have a good mood when he was presented- there wasnt any other option...
October 2003- he broke up with his girlfriend....it wasnt really nice story...I was trying to help both to feel better and happier as both of them were my close friends...The girl was really down and really desperate cause she couldnt imagine the life without him...Several times she wanted to end it up with life..I really wanted to help her...
December 2003...Day by day I started to feel more intensivly then ever before somewhere deep inside in my hearth I like the moments when Ondra is around...Suddenly I found out we dont speak about work anymore...
January 2004...I couldnt wait to see him after christmas...But I knew it is just not possible to have with Ondra something in common (except of AIESEC ) cause of my kind of good friend I wanted to help so much so that she could feel better...
February 2004...I couldnt think about anybody else then him...My hearth was beeting again like a bell, I was shaking again everytime I saw him...We couldnt speak anymore about work, about us, about anything else..I could hear his hearth beeting and he could hear mine...But both of us knew we can be nothing more then friends with AIESEC in common cause of that sad girl which was still very sad...We still wanted to help her to feel better
The mid of february there were selection to the AIESEC CR national committe...That night 5 people were sleeping in the living room on one king size bed..Nobody couldnt even notice that we fell in love with each other..While falling asleep lying next to eachother he touched my face and looked at me like no other man had looked at me before...that moment I knew he is the man of my life...We decided to wake up in two hours when everybody will be sleeping to express what both of us wanted to express for such a long time...It was the most romantic night in my life...even though we were sleeping in one bed with 4 other peopleJThe journey back from Prague to Zlin took 9 hours(normaly 4) cause we couldnt stay 20 cm far from each other more then 20 minutes...I knew he was the man of my life...but nobody couldnt even guess it cause of that sad desperated girl.
It was the winter and the only place where we could meet was the nearest forest in Zlin...I was always frozen but I didnt care cause I was with the man of my life and I really couldnt wish anything more...I was happy...I was really happy...
During next two months we had to face lots of very difficult situations with that sad girl but we were able to go over it ....Initialy I thought she will be the reason to brake up but at the end it was the right opposite...Noone and nothing could stop us from feeling that strong love and from helping each other anytime...Sometimes I was asking myself if it is not a fairy tale I am living in..sometimes I was asking myself it is really possible to love somebody that much.
...At the end of april we didnt meet at the forest anymore but hand in hand we were strolling around the town because we wanted to show everyone how much it is possible to love...
Next two years were the most happiest and the most sad years in the same time.
The happiest- 2004-2005 I spent 24 hours with Ondra cause we were working in the same team for AIESEC at the national level...We were sleeping together, eating together, driving national strategies for aiesec togather, spending hours and hours at the team meetings together, leading negotiation meetings at the companies together, going to cinema together, having dinner together. Team buildings together, weekends at OPAVA or NOVE MESTO together, enjoying time with familly and friends together....anything you thing about we shared together. I knew him in side out and me ..I couldt pretented anything cause in a minite he knew there is something I would like to speak with him about.
The most sad years
In spite of the fact we spent 24 hours per day at the MC (national committe) togather we really didnt have any privacy at all.I shared my room with two other girls and Ondra shared his room with two 3 guys next to mine..(actually just 2 cause Shantanu was always lying in the living room cause of his big mess in his badJ) We didnt want to have room together and any privacy cause the reason to be at the MC was AIESEC, MC team, personal and proffecional developement, contribution to the developement of AIESEC Czech republic..that was it...no personal life...maybe just when all the meetings will be over...which was sometimes after 11 PM. Ondra was always telling me“ dont worry about the next few years when we wont have that much time for each other...The most important is that I love U and we have the whole life in front of us...Everything will be just better...“
After MC term Ondra moved to Belgium for the traineeship. I can remember when he received the call to be accepted to work for one year for Inbev...There was sitting Ondra Gandel and I looked at him with the question.. „Now I dont know If I should be happy or if I should cry..“And he told me with a kind of Ondra K. Smile...“Be happy“! And I really tried...Because I knew it will be just for one year and it´s so true that we have whole life in front of us... and we are still young and when ever U can do something just for you if not now...
During the year he spent in Leuven he was finally able to be that person I knew he is 2 years ago...I ve never met a person who was working conciously on his personal developement that much as Ondra... For the outside world he changed so much – I couldnt believe its possible. In spite of that I was sad and happy in the same time ..cause I was in Zlin and he was happy with his life, traveling, friends, job etc...I was so afraid the traineeship will devide us as a couple as it happened to many other people before us.
Didnt happen because we really loved each other. Our relation grew day by day inspite of the 1000 km distance that was between us...With every single challenge we had to face
...And we traveled a lot...In last two years in spite of our busy timetables we managed to visit Switzerland, Tunisia, Belgium, Austrian alps, France, Croatia, many places in Czech Rep. and Slovakia.
July 2006- The day when I arrived to Belgium was the strangest day I can remember. On one side I was so happy knowing he will move to Czech Rep. in few days on other side I had such a strange feeling...Couldnt understand it...
In three weeks we´ve managed our holiday in Crotia, Serbia and Montenegro, Bosnia and Podyji in Czech...At Brno station he said bye to me „dont worry my love will see each other on Wednesday in Opava...meanwhile I will move our stuff to our new flat in Prague. Dont worry in half a year U will be there with me and finally we will start a „normal life“
That moment at the Brno station I somehow knew that someting is not in the right way. But I didnt know I saw him for the last time...In two days he was in the wrong time at the wromg place...He died because of the car accident he didnt caused while moving our stuff to our new flat in Prague.
I Dont know were I was going with my story maybe I wanted to share with all of you next points
- if U dont believe in real love please do believe! There is a love... it just depends on how much U can receive and how much U are able to give back
- If U dont believe there are also nice people in the world always think about Ondra because he was the nicest, the most friendly, fair and lovig person.
- If U dont believe U can make an impact in this world that U cant influence anything, stop for a while and think about him how much he was able to teach you how much he changed your point of view how often U think about him where is he now and what he would advice U.
- If U dont believe that everything in this world has a meaning think about this story...Persuaded it wasnt a stupid accident at the wrong place in the wrong time knowing this, its giving me drive to go on with life and to do at least a half impact as he did...
Thank U my love for enriching my life
I commemorate this posting to Ondra Kral who will stay in my hearth forever...
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That was really beautiful Eva. I deeply admire your strength, your honesty and most of all your genuine love. Thank you for sharing.
I don't think I can even comment on something as personal as this, but I just wanted to let you know that there are already so many people who are learning from you, that you may not even know about. You are definitely making a difference and an impact already.
Take care and I hope to keep in touch through your blog.
Love,
Niharika
(Ex AIESEC In India)
I don't think I can even comment on something as personal as this, but I just wanted to let you know that there are already so many people who are learning from you, that you may not even know about. You are definitely making a difference and an impact already.
Take care and I hope to keep in touch through your blog.
Love,
Niharika
(Ex AIESEC In India)
Eva, I do not know what to say..... as Niharika said, you are really impacting many.... and all of us are thinking of you....
Much much love to you...
Maria
Much much love to you...
Maria
Beautiful words Eva. You have such a touching story to tell. I look forward to checking in on you every once in awhile.
Your strength is an inspiration to many (including myself).
With love,
Jason
Your strength is an inspiration to many (including myself).
With love,
Jason
Hello eva, I don't know what to say....
This morning during the class you seemed so melancholic and I didn't understand why.
I know you only for 2 weeks but you have never shown a sign of weakness, you always remained smiling and I admire your force for this.
If I can do anything for you, if a day you feel the need to speak do not forget that I am there and that "there are never problems".
nico
This morning during the class you seemed so melancholic and I didn't understand why.
I know you only for 2 weeks but you have never shown a sign of weakness, you always remained smiling and I admire your force for this.
If I can do anything for you, if a day you feel the need to speak do not forget that I am there and that "there are never problems".
nico
Evi, nikdy jsem necetla nic hezciho a vic romantickeho nez tento pribeh. Krasna vzpominka na Ondru. Mame te radi, Evi, drz se!
Evicka, that was really nice! Thanks for sharing... Ondra was really strong, inspirable and "big" personality; those who knew him understand... Dozens of things remind me Ondra till now - he taught me a lot things ...its like yesterday I spoke with him for the last time through msn discussing some photographs etc...
Yesterday I was in Prague heading for a business meeting and when standing in metro, I clearly remembered Ondras voice when we were both waiting there for metro many times going to some companies - "when you are going for a meeting, try to imagine how it would flow..then you can compare your imaginations with the reality.. try to process this meeting firstly in your mind...I am sure it will help you..."
I know, Evka, you are also strong person and I deeply admire you!
CU in France (hopefully),
Kuba
Yesterday I was in Prague heading for a business meeting and when standing in metro, I clearly remembered Ondras voice when we were both waiting there for metro many times going to some companies - "when you are going for a meeting, try to imagine how it would flow..then you can compare your imaginations with the reality.. try to process this meeting firstly in your mind...I am sure it will help you..."
I know, Evka, you are also strong person and I deeply admire you!
CU in France (hopefully),
Kuba
Thank you, thank you so much. Even in hurry preparation of national conference (time of busy time, waiting for normal) I read all of this and wrote my Milan as I love him NOW and HERE.
Thank you for reminding to enjoy every, every possible second with people we love.
Thank you.
Eva
Thank you for reminding to enjoy every, every possible second with people we love.
Thank you.
Eva
eva,
i dont know how to express the admiration I have for expressing something as personal as this in as beautiful a way as you just did.
it takes someone as courageous and strong-willed as you to do so..i remember hearing this story as part of our many conversations in delhi and agra....
take care. you are an inspiration.
my parents pass on their love and strength to you by the way....
i dont know how to express the admiration I have for expressing something as personal as this in as beautiful a way as you just did.
it takes someone as courageous and strong-willed as you to do so..i remember hearing this story as part of our many conversations in delhi and agra....
take care. you are an inspiration.
my parents pass on their love and strength to you by the way....
Eviku,
thanks a lot for sharing your story. I was deeply touched...you triggered some new thoughts in me, thank you for that...I'm thinking of you and wish you a lot of strenght!
See you soon,
Anet
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thanks a lot for sharing your story. I was deeply touched...you triggered some new thoughts in me, thank you for that...I'm thinking of you and wish you a lot of strenght!
See you soon,
Anet
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